Y ; Wednesday, March 15, 2006.
Hey girls. I'm sorry for this long overdue post. Its just that, everytime I try to blog, I really, don't know what to type. I know you guys want some insight into my life, which is now crumbling into pieces. The truth is, I don't know how I am. I can be happy in a second, truly depressed in the next. I'm just, not ready to talk about anything yet.
I've been doing nothing but watch The O.C. on DVD. It rocks man. At least it captured my attention and helped me forget about everything while I'm watching. I'm totally in love with Benjamin Mckenzie! He's so hot! Guess its a good thing that I'm going to US to further my studies after Singapore. I get to meet guys like him. Hot guys. Way better than guys in Malaysia.
Chuin, don't worry about me. The him-me-situation, totally trying my best to get over it. I'll get over it, I hope. Anyways, Happy Belated Birthday. I'm so glad that I got to talk to you yesterday. Do you have to pay if I call you from over here? If you don't, I'll get this IDD phone card to call you from home. Yeah, I believe that you will be fine over there. You're Chuinz! Our big sister. How can you not be fine? Because you're damn fine. I'm freaking you people out now right? Not making any sense. Turning into a weirdo soon. We miss you too Chuinz. Come back and we'll have a sleepover at mine's or Chien's then we can catch up. Love you. =)
Sheen, congrats. I'm really happy for you. Stop beating yourself up over what happened in the past alright? Everyone makes mistakes because nobody's perfect. You wouldn't be Sheen if you were perfect alright. Treasure your relationship alright because you know as well as I do, it didn't come easily. Love you too. =)
Chienz. Thanks for asking stuff like if I was okay any stuff. I totally am. Just need sometime to register the fact that I can exist without that guy who melted my heart. I know you have my back at all times and I would gladly do the same if you need someone to watch your back okay? Get well soon. Again, love you. =)
For now, I have to go cook for my family. My dad hurt his leg and has to walk using a walking stick. I just found out about it yesterday. I feel so bad. How can I not know about that? I'm his daughter. I am such a failure as a daughter. Sigh. Hope you girls have fun because I'm not having any currently.
Never going to be happy again,
- S t e p h -