Y ; Wednesday, March 22, 2006.
reali sowee guyz...dun feel like coming on9 these days...don't know y...aihx...life is not getting any better...altho i've improved a lil in my exams...but looking at my friends around mi failing most of the subjects...i can't help feeling sowee 4 them...2day phoon phoon cried...i was shocked...really...she never cried last year...altho her results was as bad as last yr *no offense phoon..>.<* but...seriously...she was the one who always comforted mi when i got scolded by d teacher...or when i'm not satisfied wif my results...i guess its true dat everyone would be sad at times...aihxXxXxXx....exam brings more disadvantages!!....>.<...they should demolish exams!!..>.<..
mhm...don't worry steph...ur english is getting better and better...its impossible 4 u to disappoint shanti..>_>...then my essay would be better off be buried in a pile of shit...yeah...shit...x.X...
toking bout shit...my relationship problems smell like it...d stoopid feeling is coming back...d whole stuck btween friends and couple prob...i thought i've get rid of it...and make things clear...VERY CLEAR...wut why in the world would he say sweet things and do sweet stuffs...if he doesn't like me? i've told him...even warned him....not to do those things AGAIN...to avoid misunderstanding...but still...aihx...after all the trouble i took 2 make things clearer...its all in d dustbin now...i would definitely feel a hell lot better if he stopped messaging me...i would feel a hell lot more comfortable if he did that...coz at least he made it clear...that there'll be nothing btween us...but why...why he would msg me in a daily basis? pluz...it hurts whenever i think of steph's situation...so SO tempted 2 do something...at least something, anything 2 make things better...but its a matter btween u and him...all i could do...is 2 listen 2 whatever u hav 2 say when u're feeling down...everyone have to be tough...2 survive through their hardest times...dats d way to grow up...to understand the world better...u understand d "dao li" more than i do...right? and...4give me 4 being so rude at times...i'm still learning 2 control my emotions...and holding them down...is not easy...u know it...
and chuinz...hows life over there? made any new friends? mhm...hows ur studies? hard? miss u very much...but i think apo misses u A LOT...when u come back...we muz follow u wherever u go...even into d toilet...omg...dats too much...x.X...anyways...take care...love u guyz a lot...
LoTsA LuV,
-Chienz-