Y ; Wednesday, February 15, 2006.
i think i'm starting to hate u now..
u've made mi so so confused..
yesterday u told mi dat u'll owayz be here 4 mi whenever i needed u..
and u seldom treat a gurl so good...
and from our text messages... we don't sound like fwens...we're more than fwens...
but 2day..u're telling me dat u're feeling so SO bad coz u failed to date her..
and now!
u're asking me 2 be ur sms-date...
WTH is dis?!?
taking mi as a substitute?
guess i was right all along...
u !!
are a guy who juz take me as another cheap gurl..
u !!
are a guy whoz juz too lonely ...
u !!
are a guy whoz juz desperate 4 someone to be with u when u can't hav her by ur side...
my feelings 4 u are true...
i've spent so many time 2 figure dat out...
been trying so hard 2 deny it in the past few months...
been trying 2 persuade myself dat no love would happen btween us...
and i've...
spent so many effort and took so much courage out of mi 2 get everything clear..
but guess wut u gave me in return?
more confusions..more depressions..and more disappointments...
why things juz can't happen the way dat i want it to?
why i could be so SO moody over some stoopid things about him?
why i juz can't get him off my mind?!
why i could cry 4 him...when he's not worth it?!
everything is SO frustrating...
and i juz hope dat someone could take it all away..
i dun think i belong here...
nothing seems to be right...
-Chienz-